Stop telling me how I am going to feel

I wish people would stop telling me that I don't see to fully grasp the gravity of what I am about to go through. I am a social net worker. When I found out I was pregnant with triplets, I searched the web and found out as much as I could about the experience. I have to this day some really good friends from that time who have been increaditable supportive. Of course when I got the diagnosis what is one of the first things I was going to do? Get online and start seeing how much I can learn.

I began to research what was written on the preliminary pathology report. Found some sites with lots of information and also if they had a message board, I checked it out. The breastcancer.org site has been wonderful. From that site I have a really good understanding of what I am going to be going through. In the surgery section, there is a thread that is broken down by month. I have read so many stories about things leading up to the surgery, such as helpful items to bring and what wasn't so helpful, Things to have around for recovery. Then they are also posting days after their procedures and keep posting their progress. Some bounce back in days, some are slower to heal. It's going to vary from person to person. These threads have been very helpful in getting me ready for what is to come. I have even joined in on a few of them and am getting to know some really great and strong women.

I know my mom 10 years ago did not have it easy. She had lots of complications throughout the whole process. First I am going to say that I AM NOT MY MOM!. There are many differences between what happened to my mother and what I am going through. First I am 12 years younger than my mother was. Second, although I am on the "heaver" side of where I want to be, I have been working out regularly and am in much better shape than my mom was. Third, my cancer is much smaller than my mom's was at diagnosis. I have already decided on the Mastectomy vs the lumpectomy (which was offered as a choice at first). I am comfortable with the doctor's I chose and I am going to keep up a positive attitude. Just because I am going about with my daily life right now doesn't mean I have no idea what I am in for. I am just going to choose not to let it handicap me until its time. I have 5 weeks. They are going to go by quickly, I will have one to two weeks of hell. and than another two weeks of not quite as bad hell, and hopefully 6 to 8 weeks after surgery I can start to resume some of my normal activities. I will not over due it but I also will not stay down for any longer than I need to be, even if its just a short walk around the house.