Sorry for the Break

I just ended up in some sort of funk. Between that and the school year coming to an end I have just been overwhelmed in stuff. Toss in recovery, I just haven't had a chance to catch up with much. I apologize for that.

Well here I am 5 weeks later and I have to say I'm having better days and than those not so much better days. There was a period of time about 3 to 4 weeks in that my chest just hurt. It was all I could do was sit there and hold my boobs. Thankfully those times are getting further and further apart. Unfortunately not a day goes by where I am not completely aware of my boobs and how they are feeling today. This past sunday was a good day. I sat and relaxed by the lake and really was not aware of much more than my stomach. (The mesh the PS placed in there still feels a bit weird but he said it, like my new breasts would also take getting some adjusting to). I even managed to get my kitchen cleaned out and a few other odds and ends done. I paid for it today.

Its a feeling that is hard to describe. Maybe its like wearing a bra that is a bit snug. Problem being that I'm not wearing anything but a cotton cami and there is nothing to remove. (BTW Love those simple cotton cami's They are comfortable to sleep in and to wear underneath cothing that would otherwise be very uncomfortable.) The other thing I'm still having issues with is sleeping. I'm a side sleeper and I just have not been able to get comfortable. I still can't sleep flat on my back so I have a few pillows piled up. Of course over the course of the night I slip down and then wake up. I try to sleep on my side but I need a pillow for the front to help support and one behind me to keep me from falling back.

I know its only temporary and one day I won't even think about it. I just wish It would get here sooner than later. I meet with an oncologist on tues. I'm a bit curious to see what she has to say. Of course nothing with me is ever clear cut. My BS Might want me to see a radiologist as well. I was really hoping to avoid radiation but the margin to some DCIS that they found was a bit closer than she would normally like to see. I should get a copy of the Pathology report tomorrow so I can start to get some research done before I meet with the Oncologist. Hopefully my next post won't be so long in coming.