Copied from my cancer board

The drains under the arms were one of the most annoying things I have every dealt with. I can happily say that today I went from 4 and am now down to one. As long as that one can stay below 30, It should come out on Monday. My PS doesn't want it in to long as he had to place a piece of mesh to actually give me some abdominal structure and he doesn't want that to get infected. I also meet with my BS and she is thrilled with how everything has turned out. She did give me a chuckle as she was checking on the PS as he was working and helping keep DH updated and the poor PS was not having very nice things to say about my high risk OB. Cant say I blame him. I didn't like him much either. Except for the lack of nipples, you would never know I had a mastectomy. My Dh was asking about some revisions and such and both the PS and me looked at him and told him to take a chill pill. I am only 1 1/2 weeks out. I need to give everything time to settle and start really moving again to get rid of the swelling. I have a bit of a fungal infection by one of the drain sites under my arms but he said a bit of anti fungal stuff (think athletes foot stuff) and I should be fine. My DH even found one that was scented since not being able to wear deodorant has been driving me insane. I'm still not happy about the amount of underarm hair but I know I will be able to deal with that soon.The good news is I'm pretty much off all meds except for the antibiotic. If I feel like I need anything Advil is enough.

I have to say those first two days were absolute HE** but since I've been home, I am so much happier. The drains were a real pain but with them gone I'm Free! The only other major issue I ran into was the ps said not to worry two much about undies under the yoga pants. Now I'm NOT a commando type gal by any means but I did as he asked. Well I ended up with the worst chafing and diaper type rash. I haven't had desitin in the house in years but DH went to the store and got me some and as long as I was home either alone or with DH I just let it all hang out and am now feeling so much better.

The kids bickering is a bit tiring but we are working on it. They have discovered that mommy will take absolutely no nonsense right now or they will not be happy with the outcomes. DH goes back to work next week after being off for two. My Mil plans on coming again next week to help in the am although I will try to see if I can get my self up and going and getting the kids out the door. but at least she should be here for back up. The one thing I haven't tried yet has been walking the puppy.

So after the doc appointments, my DH took me shopping to kohls. I needed to figure out something to wear. I have spent the past 20 something years in jeans and t shirts and right now jeans are not very appealing to try to put on. So I came home with 4 new dresses, (In addition to one I had packed away years ago and never thought I would fit into again.) I am just in such shock that I am actually going to where dresses again. I have always had to much tummy to get away with them. Of course my thunder thighs are still there but hopefully i will be able to do something about that when I can get back to exercises class. I have had a few breakdowns, usually when I think about my mom and what she must have been feeling. I'm sad that she isn't here to be with me but I do know that she is with me in here spirit.